"Sad Days"

I don't have a "favorite song". I like songs for a while, but they become boring after listening so much times. So, that's why I'm always listening different songs. But this song is really significative for me. It's "Les Jours Tristes", from composers Yann Tiersen and Neil Hannon, the soundtrack album of french movie "Amélie", released in 2001.
The topic of this song is about keep fighting and not giving up. Talks about how hard life is; how life treats you like shit time to time, day to day; when everything become unfair, when everything you believed become a lie, until you want to hide and forget everything and everyone. But you must keep moving forward. The song says it doesn't matter what everyone else believe, what they say, what they do; you must "stay strong"and reach happiness.
My boyfriend send me this song when I was in my first period of exams, and one night, studying for an exam the day next, I knew I reproved one signature. Today it doesn't mean the big deal, I reproved two more signatures the following years, and I'm still alive. But in that time, it seems the world falls down (I suspect this intolerance of failure it comes from culture of success, and if you don't make everything right at first time, you're terrible wrong, lost and miserable).
I know this reason is stupid, but when I'm feel lost, and I want to send everything to hell (not only for academic troubles, I must say), I listen to this song. With this one, I remember "it's worth the fight".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xgQ3qPKF58

I photograph I like

This is one of the pictures I really like and estimate. This picture was taken by an old and good friend (I know exactly who was, but for personal reasons I won't tell her name), in Parque Mallinco, Peñaflor, at January 14th, 2012.
Sitting on the lawn, we were one of my best friends, Binimelis (his name is Bastián, but I always call him by his last name. A custom) and me. It was a meeting between parents and children who were expelled, like I said before in the blog. Yes, Binimelis was expelled too.
That saturday was nice. And strange, in some way. That weekend was just days before we'll know about our future. It was just one day before I'll know I was accepted in Universidad de Chile, in Derecho. It was days before Binimelis was accepted in Universidad de Valparaíso, and he had to go to Valparaíso to study Sociología.
On the other hand, I like this picture because it shows us with funny faces. With half-closed eyes, each of us looking for different sides. And totally spontaneous. I think it reflects our positions before life, always with a little bit of skepticism.

And, overcoat, I like it because Binimelis has the same look that has the evil dog in the Simpsons' chapter when appeared Mel Gibson.

Christianity

I don't know if I ever been a truly catholic person. I was baptized, and I did the first communion, because I was a child and my parents forced me to do it. When I was in the first communion classes, we used a book which talked about Jesus and that stuff, and by the end of the lesson, you had to compromise yourself to do one good thing, swering before God that you'll must do that thing all a week. And I thought I was a bad person, with 8 years old, because I'll never fulfill that promise. I thought I didn't deserve to do the first communion, because I was a bad girl who doesn't fulfill her promises before God.

When I was a little older, fifteen or something, one day I discover by myself that "life is just one", and I was living so quiet and calm, believing that shit about life beyond death and all that crap religion makes you think, even unconsciously. But life ends with death, and there's nothing more. That was an horrifying revelation.

 I think religion acts like some kind of limit for human beings. It don't let them be the way they really, truly deep inside want to be. It's says to them how to act, how to live, how to love, work, think… It's says to them they need to be good, otherwise, they'll suffer forever in hell; they'll be punished by God himself when they'll die by all their sins.

I believe people must be good and nice and kind because they want to be, not because they're afraid of divine punishment. And if they don't want to be good… well, that's part of nature humanizes; choosing.